Will you help?

Those of you who know me, also know that I have always been one step out of the crowd and marching to a different beat. This has always been my modus operandi. I have my whole life strived to be and sometimes failed in my goal of being a decent person. Recently several facets of my life, past and present have combined themselves into a driving force. I am on a journey to not be a plainly common and decent man, but am training, learning and working towards becoming a great man. I have as we all have, made mistakes in life. I do not regret those errors, but embrace them as they have forged me into who I am at this moment. I failed a marriage as I feel we both did not take into account the seriousness of the commitment we uttered. I do not believe we were meant to ever marry but we did it anyway and made a mockery of it. This is an action which I will constantly pay the price of my youthful foolishness. In doing so, I hope to make my daughter and stepdaughter better understand what a relationship between a man and woman, should truly be. Admitting my mistakes is no less hard than making a learning example from them will be. I have denied my faith for many years, due wholly and partly by mistakes made by other persons and myself in life. I shuttered out greatness and became a solitary warrior against the world. A lyric strikes me at this moment "we do together what we cannot do alone". This being said, I am asking each of you to hold me accountable for my mistakes and transgressions. If you would do this, the reward is my daughter and step daughter knowing without error what a man should be. In doing such I hope they would in turn strive to be as great and wondrous women as they could find the strength and guidance to become. This is my paying it forward. I will not falter as failure is not an option. I care not for your opinions or personal beliefs on this undertaking of mine. I am only asking for your support. I know that my God and my Family will carry me across this bridge of change. I ask sincerely that you understand my reasons and support them, however different they are from yours. I am tired and disgusted of our current collective of "men" and the general lackadaisical way they as I have in the past, shrug responsibility and refuse to take up the sword and fight back all the “demons” that have ruined what we should be. Our actions affect not only the opinions of our women and children as they pertain to us. If you have not been the man and person you should be and have burnt your bridges, then build another one. I am trying with every fiber to stand tall, chain myself to the mast and become what we all have refused to be: A man! The time is now to put away childish things and lead by example. I am not asking you to become Christian, Hindu, Buddhist or any other faith. I am asking only to stand with me and change this downward spiral of decadence we have become. It is not enough to want change, but as Gandhi said we must be the change we want to see. I am with you and you will not be alone. If I use profane and vulgar language around you, please call me on it. If I judge you or others, I command you to correct my wrongs. If I fail in my fatherhood and manhood then I expect you to point out my faults. I am becoming truth. Will you help me?